Gosh! its been what..? 5 months? wow. i suck at this.

Okay! well update time. Sorry, i'm terrible at blogging!

Well i've been swimming for Bingham High School. (: yes. and We are UNDEFEATED! Right now, my shoulder's been giving me problems still. so i've only been swimming freestyle and breastroke. 50 free time: 29.11. 100 free time: 1:04:--. 100 breast time: 1:20:75. I'm seated 50th for the breast in state!!!(: i'm stoked. season is about halfway over.

Bingham took State in football(: go us.

Boys? I like a senior. again. (: haha.

I got an iPod Touch for Christmas!

i'll finish later.
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1-800-HELP!!

IM SO CONFUSED! ok. Here's the story.

So I like this kid. his name is... "bob" and we flirt all the time. He'll like say Haylee in a way that makes my heart flip over and then grins at me. I got his number and we text alot too! He sits in front of me in a class, and he always randomly turns around to just look at me without even saying anything. He always asks ME the answer or what the question was or what we're suppose to be doing even though we both know that the kid who sits next to me is 10x smarter than me. Last night he told me he wanted to hang out and all that. So he hasn't come out and said that he likes me but me and my friends all think he does.

THEN there's this other guy named... "ronald". I met him last year and there was a week where we spent every single day together. I kinda thought he was cute but at the time he had a girlfriend. He told me today that he broke up with his girlfriend (she moved to a dif. state) and that he likes me. Hes such a sweetie and he's exactly what i want for a boyfriend.

The problem is that the pros and cons are equalish. I don't want to go for one and hurt the other, but i love them both! Man. I would hate to be the bachelorette. this is hard enough and I'm not even getting married.

so im calling to you guys, 1-800-HELP and I need it fast!

UPDATE TIME!

Alright. Update time!

Swimming--Salt Lake Country Club Championships were held August 4&5. I raced 3 individual events (Breast, IM and Fly) and 2 relays (free, medley). In Semi-finals, i dropped a second off my breastroke time which ended up as a 37.74. i was seated 2nd!(: then i went about the same time in finals and got second. which made me mad because i was so set on first. but oh well(:
then in semi-finals the next day, I dropped 3 seconds in my IM! from a 1:17 to a 1:14! thats what i call awesome(: then i dropped a second in my fly and that brought me to a 31:58. I was going for the pepperwood record (30:34) but oh well. then i went about the same in finals.

Trek--Great experience. I learned alot about the pioneers and what suffering and trials they went through. I got a better understanding about it. I always knew that they went through hard times, but hearing the stories and such made me realize what they really went through. my friend Mark and his dad sang a song called "prayer of a walking child" with "come, come ye saints" intertwined in it. wow. let me tell ya, that was amazing. Yeah, if you get the chance to go on trek, go.

Park City--uber fun! Me and my best frienn jessie went up there for part of the week. we hung out at the pool, the lounge, our room, and went on the alpine coaster and zipline! so fun. let me tell ya... (:

School Shopping--i got lotsa new clothes(: i love to shop. :P I can't believe school starts in 3 days! thats crazy. i want more summer. i'm not ready for homework yet!

Boys--I don't like anyone at the moment. Those boys, they're fun to flirt with but i don't like them anymore. I do kinda have this thing for this guy who i'm really close to but i don't want to ruin our "brother/sister" relationship because my stupid emotions got in the way. so i'm keepin it the way it is.

peace.

is in a delimma.

well. i eliminated two of the guys. and added another one. the thing is, these guys are really close. and sometimes i think they both like me. so if i go for one and something happens, i completely miss the chance to go for the other one. Its so hard.
i don't wanna ruin the chance with hmm... lets say tyler. i've been working hard to get him and i think i've almost got him but now that the new guy has entered the picture i'm not sure i wanna do anything. But he kinda already told me he's gonna ask me out when school starts but idk because he isn't the kind of guy i'm gonna hold to that. but hes so sweet at times and i really like him.
i'm leaning toward... lets call him jim. hes so outgoing, fun, sweet and just up for anything! i kinda want him to be my summer romance and hey if it cuts into school well thats just cool! (:

what do you think i should do in this situation?

i'm hurting.

So i just got in a fight with my friend. we have been best friends forever (like honestly since we were like 5.) and she is really mad at me.

So.... its all over this guy. she can't get over him and he's caused her a ton of pain. So i keep telling her to just get over him because he's just a boy (right?) and honestly its not that big of a deal. but she just says that I don't even give a crap about it and that i ignore her every time she brings it up. I told her it was because i didn't want to have to see her go through that all over a stupid, idiotic, immature guy. then she said that she wishes she was dead. and that i can go live my life however the heck i want to. then she took me off her friends list, (mind you, this was all over facebook.) and said something like "______ is depressed because she is fighting with someone who she thought was her friend/someone she thought she could trust with everything. but apparently not. maybe they shouldn't be friends anymore." to that extent.

honestly, I don't know what to do. this girl is really dramatic and i've always been the one to tell her that because i'm not scared of what she will do to me. and most the time, she just slaps herself up because she knows i've been right about things. but now, we aren't even friends anymore. i'm hurting. help me. i don't want to lose this friend because of an argument over a stupid boy. that is not something i want to tell my kids someday.

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Hmmm....

So I'm torn between three different guys.

The first guy is the one I was talking about in my last post.... I don't know if he likes me or not but sometimes it seems like it and others it doesn't.

The second guy is this way super cute/funny/sweet/flirty kid that might like me but I'm doubting it.

The third guy is this new guy who told me that he likes me and pretty much like is in love with me. I don't know if he's the kinda kid I like tho. I don't exactly know him as well as the other guys. But he's so sweet and so funny and I might like him.

HELP!

Little Red Flag goin up here....

SOS....

So I like the guy that I liked back in like the first semester of school last year.... the one who lives by me?
Ughh. Idk what to do cuz he kinda told me that he likes me but he never said it straight up. like here....

(B=boy, H=me)

B-who do you like?
H-why should I tell you?
B-why not?
H-well cuz when a guy says "who do you like?" its pretty much saying "i like you" and you told me you don't like anyone so why do you care so much who i like?
B-I never said that.
H-what?
B-I never said that.
H-wait...you do?
B-why should I tell you? :P
H-duh. I wanna know if someone likes me hello.
B-you won't tell me who you like so i'm not tellin you who i like.

So retarded right. Ughh. I don't know what to do cuz I don't wanna be the one pursuing him again. I want him to pursue me, and he kinda is. He just is being stupid and Idk what to do.

HELP!!!! honestly!

*oww* I feel good! *na na na na na na na*...

Ok. So this post is going to kinda tie in religion FYI.

The steps to repentence/forgiveness are as follows.

• recognize that you have done wrong (oops. that didn't go right.)
• don't repeat the wronging (never again...)
• recommit yourself to living a better life (yay! party!)
• make restitution for the wrongs you committed (that means apologize. duh)
• feel remorse for the wronging (awh. i hate this feeling.)
• know that repentence requires time and effort (how much longer!?)
• resolve the feelings of retribution (no hard feelings... right?)
• receive forgiveness (from everyone)

So we had this lesson in sunday school and the whole time, I just had this nagging feeling that I hadn't fulfilled my repentence. There are a couple of girls that I've had rough friendships with and the second my teacher said "Our lesson is on repentance", I felt the pit in my stomach grow. Throughout the whole lesson, it just kept getting deeper and deeper. I promised myself that I would do what I had to do when I got home to make the whole situation better with those girls. I've been feeling remorse from what I've done for a while now, and since I moved schools, it has gotten worse. I feel terrible for everything that I have done in these fights we've been in and I needed to do my part to make it better.

Today, I sent a long, heartfelt email to the 2 girls apologizing for every thing I'd ever said, thought or done to them that hurt them. I asked their forgiveness and I sincerely apologized. The minute I clicked the "Send" button, I immediately felt better. The pit that had grown on Sunday was gone. I know that I did my part in the apology and I took another step in repentence.

*haybayy*

Freedom Fighters

Hey all. My little brother (he's 12) is writing a book. And you guys have to get this: He's really good. I'm pretty sure he's gonna become like a world-famous author someday.

here's his website: http://freedomfighters-tannersbook.blogspot.com

now, its kind of a different type of writing. But you have to give it a chance because i've read alot of it. more than he's put on there. And it's good.

*haybay*

AC Joints SUCK.

So I got back from the Chiropractor today with some devastating news....

But before I tell you the news, I have to tell you what happened.

I was at swim practice about a month ago and I was doing a pulling set. I wasn't fully inshape yet and I grabbed a set of hand paddles. Big Mistake. I was just about to glide into the wall and I took one last stroke and I heard a huge "POP" and felt my whole shoulder move in a way that shoulder's aren't meant to move. I sat out the rest of practice and just stretched. I only went to one other practice and then I left on my cruise.

Monday (June 15), my mom took me to Dr. Rosquist (chiropractor) and he told me that I had just sprained my Rotating Cuff Tendon and that I'd be out for like 2 weeks at the most. Wrong.

Today, I went to a different chiropractor who was really good. (Don't get me wrong, Rosquist is amazing. He just wasn't as specialized in this injury as this other guy). He had spent like a year studying shoulders, elbows, ankles, arms, legs, and etc. So anyway, He did some tests on my shoulder and came up with the following diagnosis: My AC Joint is a complete wreck. I'm not allowed to lift my arm at all which means....No Swimming. I can't swim until my shoulder is better. This is devastating. He said it could take a few weeks at the LEAST.

Pray that I'll get better, please.

SUMMER ALREADY!!!

Alright! It's officially summer and I'm ready to party!!! (:



So last week was my cruise...here's a few pics....and this isn't even the half of it. not even a quarter of it. not even a HUNDRETH of all the pics we took.

(last pic: that's my whole group minus the other 5 guys who didn't go. L-R: Jessie, Lauren, Me, Stephen, Bethany, Angie, Preston, Madi, and Madz)

So... Yeah! I've had a great time. Except I got home from my cruise and I threw up. It was so lame. I'm recovering right now tho so I'm good.

I've also really badly sprained my rotating cuff tendon *shoulder* while I was at swimming. I'm out of swimming for probably 2 weeks, as long as i do my stretches. (what if i don't!?) kidding. Well yeah. It sucks.

Gimmie a call my friends. I'm bored.

HAVE A FANTASTIC SUMMER!

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- - 120th post! - -

So it's my 120th post! wow, that's a lot to post! I feel so accomplished.

Anyways....Me and him broke up. I realized that I don't want a boyfriend. I'm too young. I like being boyfriend-less. Then I'm free to have crushes *crushes are super-fun(: *, I'm free to shamelessly flirt with whom ever I please *and i very muchly enjoy flirting.*, and I don't have to worry about the whole stress of being a couple. He was pretty sad about it, but I think he'll get over it soon enough. School's almost out and after a whole summer of not being together, he'll be long over me. (I hope...)

Well yeah, 3 FREAKING DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!! WHOAH! I'M SO EXCITED! Go Summer! Woot woot! (: and on the 7th, I'm going on tour with my dance studio and we're going on a cruise! I'm so excited, I'll have to post about that when i get back on the 14th!

Then....party time. *evil summer laugh*

*haybay*

American Idol Was Absolutely....Fantastic!

K so here's my opinion on the American Idol outcome last night...

Personally, I've liked Kris Allen since like the Top 12, but I haven't watched it a ton this season. I just liked him. He's a cutie. And you are all going to think I'm crazy, but I don't really like Adam. Not because of his "sexual preference" because I really don't care if someone's gay or not. I think gay people are funny, they make me laugh! And I'm not predjuiced against anyone who may or may not be gay. I don't like Adam Lambert because in my opinion, his voice is too shrill. When he goes up for high notes, he strains himself and it doesn't sound good. Kris's voice is always smooth and it doesn't seem like he tries too hard to hit them.

Adam went on AI already a superstar and he is definitely going to cut a record deal with someone, just watch. Kris went on there a college boy who no one knows in hopes of winning, but didn't think he would. Last night, he said "Adam should have won." So clearly, he didn't think he was going to win. He really deserved to win and I'm glad that he did!

I'm definitely going to buy the CD. (:
<3 Haylee, Kris Allen fan <3

Catch-Up Day!

Hey everyone! It's 7:10AM and I have to catch the bus in like 13 min! So this will be what I have the time to type right here.

So as of right now, my boyfriend doesn't think that I really love him and he thinks that there's a "catch" to "us". I keep telling him that I really do love him and he needs to get that in his head, but he thinks that I'm going to break up with him soon and that all girls say "I love you" but they don't mean it. Well Nick, If you're reading this, I LOVE YOU AND I MEAN IT! (:

Florida was so much fun! When I get my pictures from my uncle, I'm going to post them(: We got there sunday night at about 8:30 and then me, lauren, and our cousin madison went down the the pool! We met these kids there (they were from Ohio) and we all swam around and hung out and everything. On Tuesday, the one named Jordan got my number from our friend Kristen (he was staying with Kristen's family and we went body-surfing with Kristen the day before so we got eachother's numbers) and texted me, asking if me and lauren wanted to go down to the beach. The rest is history. Me, Lauren, Jordan, and Kristen's brother James hung out for the rest of the trip, even until 20 min before we had to leave! We had so much fun, and I will NEVER forget this trip, or my Ohio Friends! <3 you guys.

Well, so long. This is all that I have the time to post right now....Gotta go catch my bus...

Tally Ho! Haylee

Update

May 2-performance at Scout-o-Rama and party at Angies(:

May 8-party with dance buds(:

May 9-Stake dance and Mr. Amazing is gonna be there(: I love him a lot!

May 10-leave for a fun, sun-filled week at FLORIDA!
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May 17-return to reality.

Good News(:

Me and the guy I like are going out now (: I was just about to tell him that I like him, and then he told me that he has liked me for a long time (: So now we are going out!

He's the most amazing guy I have ever met(:
<3 Haylee

I'm so sorry, I'm terrible at blogging.

Sorry it's been forever. I keep MEANING to get to posting, something just always consumes the rest of my time....

Anyway....update on my boys. I am seriously in love with my best friend. It's sad cuz he got dumped a little ago, and I have to watch him get his little heart broken. It makes me so sad because I'm like the one there to be his "shoulder-to-cry-on" but I can't do anything.
I think he is starting to like me tho! I'm going to tell him either today or tomorrow, first chance I get!

My new motto is Live with No Regrets. <3 (Unless of course, it includes my dignity or something like that)

<3 haylee

ps....give me a topic to rant about or something. I'm not good at coming up with my own stuff unless I get something.

I'm so horrible with this lately!

It has been exactly a month! Gosh, whats wrong with me??

Well so again, with the boys....
I still like Mr. Green Eyes, but I like another kid. He is my friend and I met him a year ago. We haven't hung out a ton, but I talk to him like every day. I really like him. But he likes another girl who his friends going out with. What should I do? I mean, I really like him! And I don't wanna tell him until we start hanging out more.

Any advise????
**Haylee Ann**

It's been a while....

I haven't updated this thing in forever. Well, a TON has happened in the last....what's it been? A whole MONTH? Well, here's the important things....

• Me and Him? Over. Really short. He is a loser. He broke my <3.
• Valentines day? School dance and stake dance. School dance-lame. Stake dance-gorgeous boys.
• Life? Its kinda empty....but I've moved on from Loser boy and I like a kid with amazing green eyes.

Yeah. Anything else you wanna know about?

<3haylee

Seriously!!!!

BIGGIE HUGIE NEWS1!!!! I TOLD THE GUY I LIKE THAT I LIKE HIM AND HE LIKES ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*we aren't like a "thing" yet but we like eachother!!!! and this is the same guy that Ive been posting about since like october 2008*
<3<3<3<3<3

<3 HAYLEE

**111th post!!!!**

Whoo!!!! I have reached 111 posts! I think that THAT is pretty cool. (:

Well I just got home from seeing 'Forever Strong' for the second time. I just have to say that That is a very amazing and touching movie. I love it. It's definitely something that I want to buy.

I have a very important question that I really really REALLY need your guys's imput in. Here it is: Should I tell the guy that I like that I like him? Like straight up, "I like you" ? Because he already knows that I like him, but he sometimes asks "Who do you like?" like he wants me to tell him. So should I tell him? I don't know because what if he doesn't like me back and I feel all stupid and even more awkward around him? Or what if it's too embarassing? Tell me what you think.... (PLEASE!)

And my last thing I need to talk about....my band's blog. NO ONE EVER VISITS THERE. I have a link on the very top of my column, but no one is using it! I promise I'll post there more!!!! PLEASE VISIT!!!!

That is all. Thanks!
<33 Haylee

First Day Freak Out

Do you guys remember my post on August 25th? (Go back and read it if you haven't yet. DO NOT CONTINUE READING THIS POST UNLESS YOU HAVE READ THE FIRST PARAGRAPH OF 'Catchin' up on my posting....')
*I will NOT continue with this post until you have read it.*

Did you read it yet? GOOD! (:

Ok. NOW, I can continue. So it's the first day of my school. Can you guess what happened?
<33haylee
ps....comment and i'll tell you if you're right.

Just imagine that there is an awesome title right here

Ahh I'm officially out of American Prep Academy! Yesterday was my last day at gAyPA. Well, I went to get registered for South Jordan *home of the SNOW LEOPARDS* today and I just got home. Wow, it was....ca-ray-zay! It was so much different than my old school. I absolutely loved it. There are like butterflies in my stomach because i love it already. I'm kinda nervous tho! What if i miss my bus? What if i forget where all my classes are? I don't know really anyone! Ah all these "WHAT IF'S?" are driving me nuts!!!!

Wish me luck for Wednesday!
<3haylee>

I'm so stoked!

*It's the 108th post today!!!!*

Anyway, I am just wanting to express my excitement because I'm transferring schools next friday!!!! :D
And most of you are probably thinking, "what the heck!? why is that a freakin good thing???" and here is why it is such an amazing thing:
~I get a clean slate. It's not like I'm like a rebel or anything. Actually, I'm the opposite of that. I'm really like the quiet, chilled, mellow one. I'm a completely different person at school than I am at like church and other things. I don't talk a ton in class or anything, I mean yeah, when I get at it I'm a chatterbox. But I dunno, I feel like I'm known as the "smart one" cuz I get good grades and I have to help my friends with their homework. *but it's not like their stupid* and when I go to my new school, I get to be who I want and who I really am: Me.
~I'm going to be away from my school's drama. *Yes, I know that drama is unavoidable* I go to a charter school *aka private school, uniform school, smart school, etc* and it, like all other charter schools, is very VERY small. There are only around 65 kids IN MY GRADE. You may think that this makes it so that there is LESS drama than normal Jr. Highs, but in reality, there is actually more. This is because there are less people, which makes it so everyone is picked on more than normal. Plus, most of the girls in my grade are very immature and they are total drama queens and everyone hates someone for no reason AT ALL. So there is a lot of crap going around about everyone *you hear something about every person every single freakin day* and it makes me sick to my stomach. I'm very excited to be away from all that.
~Boyzzz.....lotsss offf themmm.... *like I said above, 60 kids/grade=not a ton of guys to choose from...*
~Two words: NORMAL CLOTHES
~The excitement of being the "New Girl"
So yeah as you can see, I am very stoked! Next Thursday is my last day at American Preparatory Academy, and next friday is my first day at South Jordan Middle. I waited until the end of the semester so my grades wouldn't be all messed up and I thought it would be better to start with a clean report card just when everyone else does.

Wish me luck! (:
<333 Haylee